rEfLeCtIoNs[2o1o]

Reflecting on the past can only ever make the future better. This was not an easy year. It had many rough patches but I made it through in one piece:)

2010.
What a year. Looking back is almost surreal because it flew by faster than the speed of sound. I honestly have no clue where it went. Maybe the reason why I feel this way is beacuse I did so much to fill it. I finished eleventh grade and started twelfth!(woot woot) I danced straight through the summer. I got on pointe!(lifelong dream accomplished!) I matured while at the same time I let go of my inhibitions and learned to be a kid. I got close to a few wonderful girls but at the same time, I grew apart from my dearest and closest friend. I finally figured out that I don't know whats next and decided that that was okay. I became more realistic about life and peolpe and goals.  I sang  karaoke.
Obviously I did more than this^.. but does it really matter?... the most important thing I got from 2010 was a better understanding of myself. Time changes people and I know thats true because I am a completely different person than I was 365 days ago. I like who I'm becoming and that's one of the best lessons anyone can learn.
People often ask me what my plans are, post graduation. For probably about 75% of last year I worried and tossed and turned over that question because I honestly had no clue. And guess what...i still don't. The only difference now is I'm okay with it. I'm not  as worried as I am much as curious. I'm not  as scared as much as I am anxious. Yes, there are defnitely things i want to do with my life and I will.. eventually. 2011 for me, is about learning to let go. Not of responsibility -or sanity- rather of me. I,for so long, let myself get in the way of the things that God was doing or speaking into my life. Because I didn't see the big picture i couldn't trust.. this year I want to live recklessly and let god have His way. I want to live this year passionately and whole heartedly without a crutch of fear or stress,
A toast,so to speak, to easy, free living in 2011.

Now let's see where He takes me...

~simply tammy♥