Thursday, February 18, 2010

Before I die I want to...

On mtv there is a show called "The Buried life".The show spotlights four young guys who made a list of 100 things they want to do before they leave the earth."For every item they complete on their list, they help a stranger achieve one of their dreams. Everywhere they go they ask the question: What do you want to do before you die?"This show was a real inspiration to me, it got me thinking.

One day as I watched the show I thought about what I want to do before I die.. I came up with a list of my own... but I didnt quite get to 100.


1.be on disney channel
2.go to/get through college
3.learn to figure skate
4.play the guitar
5.play the piano
6.piece a quilt
7.take voice lessons
8.dance on pointe
9.grow my hair to my butt[:)]
10.go to hillsong
11.take cooking classes
12.make a cake decorated in fondant
13.be on american idol
14.have my song played on the radio
15.go scuba diving
16.grow a rose bush
17.meet the jonas brothers/demi lovato
18.sing in front of 20,000 + people
19.die my hair blue
20.perform on a street corner
21.visit the ocean
22.fly on a plane
23.watch the Hawaiian sunset
24.meet cameron alexander
25.make $1 million
26.go to public school for a week
27.stay up all night*
28.visit england
29.be in a movie
30.blow $1000 @ the mall
31.have 4 kids
32.go to a "party venue" with paige[:)]
33.have my own fashion line
34.take a train
35.visit the big apple
36.live in the hamptons
37.fit into a size 4
38.get married in a forest
39.write a book
40.get my master's degree
41.tell someone off
42.be famous:P
43.fill an entire ipod
44.ride a horse on the shoreline
45.graduate 12th grade with straight a's:/
46.meet the man of my dreams
47.hava a date on the beach
48.eat a whole pizza
49.be on broadway
50.read 100 books in a year
51.give my diary to my daughter
52.meet Morgan Freeman
53.save my first kiss
54.make someone's dreams come true
55.ride the pitfall*
56.run a marathon
57.get a tattoo
58.get my nose pierced
59.read the whole bible
60.stay abstinent until marriage
61.sing karaoke*
62.keep my room clean for a month
63.be on the news
64.be in the newspaper
65.go on a game show
66.make a dress
67.eat a bug*
68.go speed dating
69.drive to the top of a mountain and watch the sun rise
70.watch an entire lunar eclipse
71.drive in a convertible
72.ride in a helicopter
73.go cliff diving*
74.eat a candle lit dinner with a hot guy(:])
75.be on a tv commercial
76.ride on a san francisco street car
77.ride in a taxi cab
78.sleep on the beach
79.travel out of the country*
80.go movie hopping
81.get a weave
82.go all night bowling
83.stand in the equator
84.chase a tornado
85.pretend to be homeless
86.go on a road trip
87.be on a billboard
88.go on the sky coaster
89.visit every continent
90.swim with dolphins
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98.
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100.
(*=completed)

Some of the things on my list may seem meaningless to you but for me there is a meaning behind each and every number. The activities aren't in any specific order, I just wrote them as they came to me. I don't know if all of those things will happen... probably not, but I won't stop dreaming. People who dream big, Live big. Who says I can't be on american Idol? Who says staying abstinent is impossible? It's my life and ima live it.
A few weeks ago my church choir sang in an old folks home. As I stood on the stage, I started to realize how short life really is. I wondered what these people's dreams were when they were young like me...were their dreams the big times? What did they want most out of life, and more importantly, did they achieve it? I know alot of older people regret not doing things they wanted when they were young. Maybe they pushed their dreams aside and said they would get to them later, but never did. As I stood there I realized that I don't want that to happen. I want to fulfill my dreams and live my life to the fullest. I don't want to be old and have regrets about what I should have done in the " old days".
I always think to myself, "today is over and I'm never going to get it back... what did I do today that brought me closer to my dreams?" Now think about that. It really started to give me a new perspective on things. Some days I idle around with nothing to do, somedays I am completely productive. Of course there must be a balance, but it really makes me not want to waste on more minute, one more day. I wrote a song that kind of put my feelings and thoughts into words...


Lovely life

there's only time enough to spend
on Life's achievements
a chance to dream the life you'll live
but you have to believe it
don't listen to the voices inside
the doubts and fears where hopes and dreams hide
You can make it, you will make it

your lovely life
don't take it for granted
don't waste your time
on things with no purpose
your lovely life
do something worth it

the time will fly-times flying by
keep on achieving
A chance to be everything you've dreamed
So close you can feel it
Don't let yourself think less of you
Do everything you know to do
You can make it,you will make it

your lovely life
don't take it for granted
don't waste your time
on things with no purpose
your lovely life
do something worth it

This is your life, this is your time
make the most of what you got
This is the life,this is the time
give it your best shot
by : tammy rose

This is all that we got. We have to make the best of it. There is no excuse for not following your dreams. Don't doubt yourself. You can achieve your goals, you can be whatever you want to be.This is your time.. Go for it.


What do YOU want to do before You die?

~simply tammy

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

helen keller?

So, over the course of my life, I have been through MANY tragic procedures, procedures including: pulled teeth,lazered fernectomies,lanced sties,constant eye infections, and puberty:P
by now im used to the tradgedy and drama from these things. This past week I learned that I have to go through another one of these crazy prcedures.

Last week I had Saturday,Sunday,Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday, and Thursday off from school due to the abnormal snow levels. We(my family and I) were basically stuck in the house for a week, leaving us somewhat stir crazy.Well my sister Paige has glasses, or should I say HAD glasses, before she lost them, so my mom called down to the eye doctor in hopes of replacing her m.i.a glasses. The optometrist was overjoyed at the possibility of having another patient on his "slowest most boring day" in his entire career in optometry. To give the doctor something to do, my mom made me get out of bed so that I could fill a cancellation @ the doctor's office.SO RANDOM!!
It was just a typical snow-thursday as we(paige, Lauren and I) drove through the snow covered roads to the doctor, or so I thought. We got to the doctor in about 3 seconds(being that it's precisely 2 blocks from my house)and sat in the waiting room. The techy nurse called my name and everything was as normal as ever.As she performed the annual standard tests on me, I started to notice that the vision in my left eye was progressively worse since my last eye appointment. After she was finished testing my eyes, she led me to a room where I waited for a few moments for my doctor...and in came a very pretty and pleasant woman. She also tested my eyes according to normal procedures and the time began to drag...She started to explain that my vision in my left eye was pretty much shot but glasses wouldn't do anything. Sweet right? Well, she wanted the head hancho doctor to come and take a look, and I started to suspect that something(probably unsevere)was up.(I thought wrong) Again I waited for the Doc to grace me with his presence... and in he walked... He started to check me out(my eyes:) and he discovered....an anomalie??...

Ok enough with story telling, lets get down to business....So this "anomalie" is something called an "optic pit"... In my left eye I have three and whats happening is liquid,(such as blood)is getting into the pits and is making my retina(back part of the eye) lift off(kind of like a space staion)... eventually the retina will completely detach leaving me blind in my left eye.. freaky right? I think so and so did my doctor.. He has only ever seen three of these cases in his entire practice as a doctor. This leads me to the conclusion that I'm....SPECIAL!!..haha*chuckle* ok.. I guess not really but I like to think so.

This is probably one of the most (if not the most)insane things that has ever happened to me, and just think, if my mom hadn't called the doctor I would probably be blind in the near future.I can't give all the credit to my mom, God had alot to do with this and I'm seriously speechless when I think how awesome He is for letting us discover this! He perfectly orchestrated everything so that I could continue to see binocularly:) God is awesome, i knew it before, but i believe it now. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and nothing is a mistake.

so what now? I
am going to see a specialist and they will decide what to do next. I'll keep you posted but until then, this has been...

~simply tammy♥