rEfLeCtIoNs[20o9]

Reflection is good for the soul... when we reflect, we learn to appreciate and treasure all of the good times and the bad. God has taught me so many interesting things in the past year, and while at the time it was challenging and didn't enjoy it, I was able to glean from it.The year 2009 has been one of many joys,challenges, adventures and blessings. It flew by faster than any other year of my life. I have grown and learned more than I ever have and I have experienced so many new and different things.

In the past year, I turned sixteen,finished the tenth grade and started into the eleventh. I made new friendships that will last forever. My longtime dream of dancing again, was fulfilled. I experienced the pain of heartbreak and the joys of family. I read 20+ novels and took my psat's. I was accepted into the Westinghouse science honors academy and toured a nuclear reactor. In 2009, I grew as a person, I changed and learned so much. It is really amazing how one year can change a person. Yet, in the midst of all of these accomplishments and goals, God was directing my steps toward his ultimate goal and purpose for my life. It truly amazes me...He truly amazes me. I'm the kind of person who stresses. If I don't know what I'm doing every second of the day I practically have a breakdown. It's scary for me not to know what I'm going to do in when I graduate. I guess one could say that I find it hard to trust in the unknown. It's a flawed trait but it's one that I definitely possess. In this new year of 2010, my resolution would be to learn to trust in God more than I ever have. I will be making alot of big decisions and I will be needing some help. I think we humans get the whole " I know best attitude,"when in actuality we are scared to death of ourselves, and we know that we do not know best![we dont know at all.]I resolve to get closer to God and my family in the next family, and I resolve to grow and grow up as a person. 2010 is a year of reconciliation,healing and blessing. I intend to soak it ALL up.=]

I see it only fitting to thank all of the people who have influenced me this year:
Mom and Dad, Bishop and Pastor Susan Beninate, Miss Karen Knapp, Miss Kim Rausch, Jaime Lyn Carter(soon to be dray!),Tyler Carter,Paige Carter, Angela Nunez, Rosalyn Werner,Pastor Art Speck and all of the u.r.y.c counselors, Kenny okoye,Cameron Alexander, Greg Hayhurst,Ryan Ruth and all of my mansfield conservatory besties:].....I'm sure that there are many more, and I only hoped that I, in a positive way, have influeunced or encouraged someone this year. Thanks to all of you for being there and for being constants.My final thankyou goes to my creator and Lord. Thankyou for everything you have taught me and will teach me. Thnakyou for being my past my present and my future. Thankyou for guidance and comfort in those times of insecurity and questioning. Thankyou for all of the blessings that you have so graciously bestowed on me and thankyou for never letting go<3

It's been a great year and I only hope that that year will be better! It's exciting and scary but I'm ready to take it on because I know that You will be there! "It's a new dawn, It's a new day and I'm feeling good!"

simply tammy

Last Goodbye♥

This time I'm not looking back
I won't let you distract from my happiness
You've haunted me for so long
Those memories that linger on and on and on
Now they are gone

I wont hold onto you any longer
My time with you has made me stronger
and I've moved on and Ive let go
You and me are over
I't's time I let you know
That this time I've said my last goodbye

I won't let my self think back to the times we shared
I've realized that you, you never cared
I loved you for so long
Your love, you feigned, it led me on and on
We were so wrong

My first love, I never will forget
In you I trusted my heart and then you left
You failed to be the remedy for my needs
You proved to be nothing to me

this is my last goodbye.........

lyrics: tammy rose♥


(written in 1st period history class:)

embrace the pain

When others stab you in the back-
When you are left a hopeless wreck-
When there is no hope to be see-
What can you do but-
Embrace the pain

When all of life's problems come crashing down-
When there is no joy to be found-
When you want to throw in the towel-
What else can you do but-
Embrace the pain

When your life is a hopless mess-
When you get down and depressed-
Your at your end, you must confess-
What more to do than-
Embrace the pain

Realize now, it's not your strength-
You fight,you try, but still no way-
You live your life from day to day-
But don't give up -
Embrace the pain


We all go through times in our life when we are hopeless and dejected. It's a season of life. We see no hope... no reason to go on.Some people are always in a constant state of depression. Others purpose to see the good in everything. Depression is a choice, and circumstances are neutral and we decide the outcome. Don't be a victim of your surroundings,choose to come out on top. When things come at you,embrace the opportunity to do something. Be an overcomer.Life shouldn't just happen while we watch because we are too consumed in the way we feel. Football players have a saying that goes,"Pain is just weakness leaving the body." How true is that?!When we go through something tough, we are strengthened.We are being tested and tried so that we may be built up. We are to learn from the experiences, not dread and regret them. Remember that you aren't the only one who has been hurt. You aren't the only person who has lost something that they loved. Every single person has a story,you aren't they only one. Reaching out to others heals. I don't know what it is, but it's true. If we would take the time to forget about ME, we would see a world full of hurt just waiting to be healed. When you think you can't anymore, embrace the chance to move forward."Just do it"

♥Realize now, it's not your strength
You fight,you try, but still no way
You live your life from day to day
But don't give up
Embrace the pain♥


~simply tammy♥

written by a girl to every guy

Im not very experienced in guy/girl relationships, but i'm not stupid. I have come to realize many things in the past,oh, five years or so of my life. I decided to write this after I read something similar entitled"written by a guy" It could be eye opening for many, or old news. Do with this as you will:)

To every guy:

we girls care if you talk to other girls

we do care if you are friends with other girls
and if a girl walks in and you introduce us, we want you to make it clear that we are your girlfriend.It doesnt help when she starts going off about "that time" when you "had so much fun" and says "we should hang out sometime"

we do care if other girls call and text you! especially at two in the morning.

when we tell you that you are cute, we mean ur hot! but when we do we want you to say
something sweet back like: your beautiful(and we want you to mean it)

the sexiest thing about a guy is honesty and transparency(and good cologne!)

we like when you make us laugh(if a girl laughs alot around you it usually means she likes you!)

we love when u hold the door open for us, especially when we have to walk under your arm(just don't forget deodorant!)

we do like you pay for us, it shows us you care and you want to do something for "your girl"

we like when you call us your girl (not your woman) and we hate when you call us sexy!

we love when you kiss us on the cheek or forehead. We dont always want to kiss on the lips(we see it as special)

we love to cuddle:) you can never give us to many hugs!

When we go out, we want you to dress up. show us u care by lookin' ur best!

take everything we say seriously! we wouldn't have said if we didn't mean it!

dont argue with us, we will win!

we hate when brush us off because your "busy"!girls love when all her man candy can do is talk to her.

When you tell other people stuff about us, we always find out! especially when it's our best friend!

we love your clothes.. we feel like your arms are around us when we wear your hoodie!

Don't yell at us.

dont talk, no scratch that, dont look at other girls when you're with us.

Hard core christian guys are hot:)


questions for every guy:
why isnt one girl good enough for you?
why do you tell every girl you know you like her?
why is cheating an option?

guys, when girls are in a relationship, they want someone who is honest and true to only her. We aren't interested with sharing you with anyone else. We invest alot in you and you should do the same for us. we deserve to be treated with respect and honor. Respect us and respect our morals and standards. There is nothing that says you have to like 10 other girls when you are with us. SO DONT! When you leave us we feel betrayed and hurt.. just remember that every time you tell a girl you love her, she believes it. so if you dont mean it, dont say it.we see relationships like fairy tales. don't dash our dreams. Every girl deserves to be treated like a princess...and every girl dreams of the guy who will be her prince. We love to goof off with you.. STOP TRYING TO IMPRESS US! Be yourself be real and be fun!.. thats what we truly want! You can never say or do to many nice things for us. Every girl on this planet is a hopeless romantic, hoping to romanced.♥

~simply tammy♥

hey!!
tammy here! writing my first official blog:)
i decided to start a blog and it all happened in the shower:)
i was just thinking... "i should write a blog, it would really help my writing skills" so here i am...